The Day's Calorie Intake: 2700+++
Medicine Intake: Coumadin 2.5 mg, Lifezaar 50 mg,Aldazide 50? mg, Norvasc 5 mg
The day's Cigarette Intake: 5
Alcohol Intake for the week: 6
Present Whreabouts: Eclipse Gym Malate (yes, they have wifi too)
Last Night's Whereabouts: a secluded bar with loud music and fuzzy smoke
Activities today: a lotta hullabaloos of work in the office, blogging at the gym while doing 215 lbs of deadlift, 90 lbs of military press and -55 p
lbs of military pull ups
Contemplating on: disappearing if not forever.. even just for a year, a month or even a week.
Suicide? Sorry to disaapoint you guys but I failed almost everyone. I failed my friends (Cielo, if you're reading this I'm terribly sorry), I failed my family (if my mom would ever read this, I know she'll kill me), I failed the one I love most and most of all I failed myself.
The crap that I was discussing on miracles, being nice and all of those dramas seem to have no effect to me now. I am so weak when it comes to the lure of my former lifestyle. The Pre-enchanted Kingdom days were full of deception and superficial happiness. It seems to come back now.
I've realized that all my life.. It seems that I've been all alone. That the one I've loved was never mine.
Call me pathetic. But I really don't care anymore.
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